I always said you gotta fake it til you make it… the problem is, if you fake it for too long, it’s hard to know if you’ve actually “made it” or not. We end up going through life saying “I’m fine”, when really we’re battling things each day that others know nothing about. But why? Why don’t we talk about it? We should talk about it, so you don’t feel that you have to fake it. That’s why I started this blog.
I am the youngest of five and grew up in a religious household. My father was a pastor and my mother was born and raised in Africa (her parents/my grandparents were missionaries). There was always this weird pressure of perfection as a “PK” that I don’t think I ever outgrew. To add to that, I had my own issues with anxiety and depression that clouded my childhood (and on).
Because of my father’s calling and my own sense of adventure (or never feeling fully “at home” anywhere), I moved around a lot. I’ve moved more than 20 times and lived in 8 states across the country. After High School I did a little community college, went to cosmetology school, moved a few times, got married, went to college for Psychology and Sociology, moved some more, got divorced, then came to New England to start new once again. I now live in Western Mass, as a single mom with my 10yo dog and 5yo son. And really, my son has taught me more about life and about myself in these past 5 years than I ever would have imagined.
This blog is my way of sharing my thoughts, conscious efforts, missteps and learning moments as I wade through the chaos of life. The thing is, there IS beauty in this chaos. And if you really pay attention, every day you will find something worth loving.